This is less of a story, and more of a question to myself.
I spent my freshman year of college sleeping around, with friends or even just acquaintances, and nothing ever came of it, there were no feelings whatsoever and it was a beautiful thing. I came back home right before May to celebrate the summer with family, and I just thought that I'd have a simple, sexless summer… Then, I met this beautiful man, this man I had so much in common with, and after hanging out a few times we eventually slept together. (He's home for the summer as well and lives a very long plane flight away). I didn't think anything of it until yesterday, we spent over 24 hours together, side by side, and I realized that this three months has been much more than just sex, I've been gaining feelings the entire time. I never thought this would happen, I never fall for anyone… I want this to be so much more than a summer romance, I'm begging myself to try and make it more, but I have this gut feeling that he only wants this for the summer. I don't want this to be something that I reminisce on for the rest of my life, I want it to last… but I know it won't, and it's killing me. So I've got to ask, what should I do? Should I see if it's mutual or skip the embarrassment and just be broken?